A sign

So I'm a few days late in writing about this, but I took a few days for some relaxing on the Beach.  I definitely needed it, it did my soul good . :-)

We all know that Pete and Ferris had a special connection.  He wasn't just a typical "uncle" to her....he was so much more.  She absolutely loved him, and he was absolutely in love with her too.  He got such a kick out of her, that it's no wonder my first significant "sign" was sent by him through his little buddy, Ferris.

Sunday was a horrible day.  I was overwhelmed with grief, hurt, sadness, loss. I felt like I would never see another happy day.  Laughing was impossible. I was miserable.  I begged Pete to come to me. To show me that he was with me, that he was there to give me strength. Nothing happened.  My sadness grew and intensified.  I kept begging him to show me that he was there.

We spent the night at Erin's house so in the morning we could get an early start on our little beach getaway.  Mom, Erin, me, and the babies were in the play room. Ferris was in the family room with Chuck.  She was watching a movie and suddenly bolted off the couch and grabbed her cell (a phone that Uncle Pete gave her to play with). She picks up the phone and says, "Pete!!" "OK!" "Caitie? Mama? Gigi?" and runs into the playroom with the phone to her ear.  I asked her, "Who are you talking to?" "Pete!" she says. Teasing her, I said, "Why is Uncle Pete calling so late? What does he want?" She looked at us, and said in the sweetest voice tinged with regret, "Pete sorry! Pete Sorry! Pete Sorry!"

Ferris is only 2, she doesn't understand the word "sorry".  She has never said the word before, and hasn't said it since.  There isn't a doubt in my mind that Pete was telling me that he was sorry that he had to leave.  And I know that's true, because Pete would NEVER leave his family.  Stella and I were everything to him.  We made him so happy.  NO WAY would he leave if there was even the slightest chance that he could stay. 

So that was my first sign, and it was a doozy.  Even after he's gone, he's still trying to make me feel good.  God I love that man.